You ever just feel like your half a step behind life? Like if you could just somehow catch up, or catch a break you might get some idea of what you're doing on earth? Or, at least, you might get a clear impression that you are here for some reason, even if you haven't figured it out? That's had me down the last few days. Can't seem to clear my head.
If i just had a dollar for every time i've felt compelled to start a post with something on the theme of "Blowing the Carbon Out"...
So saturday i did a chest/abs workout-ish thing. Not that it was significantly different from my other chest workouts, but it was free of inspiration and zeal. Yesterday i took some lectures to the climbgym with me for to study. Didn't really climb worth a durn, but it was more fun studying there than at the school. Got a couple of v4s, and worked actually most of the moves on a supposed v10. i question the v10ness of the climb, but i still can't do it, so who'm i to be a critic. It did seem possible though. Too possible for my idea of a 10. Today i worked back. Can't say it went well, 'cuz i was super tired and pissed-off, and just generally didn't show up for the workout 'til the end; but i did jack my bent o'er BB rows up to 185, which is 10lbs more than usual. And i got a bit more than usual on one-arm cable rows. Weighed in at 204 today. Irritating. i'm so friggin' sick of school that i'm having trouble crawling to the finish line. They've been making us take our tests in this tiered theatre-style classroom so they can watch us better, 'cuz someone's been accused of cheating. So there's just this constant stress of what if i get booted on some notion that i've looked at someone else's paper. It's idiotic. Who would be that stupid a few weeks before we're on rotations? But for now we're still treated like 3rd graders, and instead of just confronting the person, they'll just stress everyone out. And the bastards put our "white coat ceremony" at exactly the same time as the next Stone Cup. i loathe ceremonies. But at least it'll be the last time i have to sit in that classroom for a while. i think i'm gonna go back on Green Faces after this.
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I know exactly how you feel. At least you will finish school. I can't figure out how to get off this circle track that I seem to be on. let me know when you plan to start the green faces. I think I'll be ready jump on that boat with you.
Well, one thing 'bout your rut is that you've got an income and are good at what you do, even if you're bored with it. The track wants for tweaking, as it were--change of scenery. i definitely am looking forward to rotations. i need a change of scenery m'self real bad. i'm starting to crack. i'll let you know when i fire up GF. i'm going to lose some stinkin' weight. i do think that'd help my filthy mood.
I'm fully on board for a diet this round. Let me know and we'll be a two man support group.
whhhate eees thees green faces eweuns are talkin aboot?
Righteous. It's coming. i'm mighty glad you're in.
Bryant! You're in too, yes?!
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